Good morning!
Once again, I've come here with nothing to say. I do that every so often and I never know where it'll lead.
Oh! Last night Fuckbuddy dude called for the first time in months. (You may remember him, I THOUGHT that I blew him off months ago.) But, he didn't mention that at all so I'm perplexed. Damn, that man is so pretty. We were chatting and all of a sudden I thought about Cheek Dude and I felt bad for speaking to fuckbuddy dude. Cheek hasn't done anything to make me feel like that...it was just one of those spontaneous feelings that I didn't expect.
What the heck does that mean? I don't understand me sometimes.
I had another one of those unexpected spontaneous feelings the other day when I was speaking with Rick. He mentioned something about his ex wife (the one before me) and it annoyed me. It shouldn't have, he meant nothing by it. I was just surprised that I felt jealous after all this time. What the heck does THAT mean?
Those are some telling feelings, I would think. I don't know what the heck they tell people, but they have to mean something, I just don't know what.
I had a migraine last night for the first time in years. I've had headaches, but this was a full blown migraine/sick headache. It eventually went away but I was freaking out a bit. I thought, "Oh, this is great. I'm gonna blow that aneurysm and be dead by morning." I didn't know how I would let you guys know that I was dead. I should find someone to give my password to so that if I do just drop dead, you'll know what happened to me.
When I had that cerebral bleed last year, I was sitting in my doctor's office waiting room. Quite the coincidence, I had an appointment and felt fine. One minute I was filling out paperwork and the next I was in the emergency room all tied down. I had NO idea what I was doing there. I ended up in the hospital for a while after that.
I was thinking about that the other day. Between the tumor and the aneurysm, I don't know what to expect out of my brain. But, I remember the nothingness that I experienced after the bleed and it made me realize that if I did drop dead, I wouldn't feel a thing. So, I'm not so afraid of it anymore.
I am scared when I drive, though. Especially if I'm going fast. I wonder what would happen if I stroked out on the road. I told my father that because at one point I was just too scared to drive. My dad said that it could happen to anyone, any time. Between that and the time that has past, I have gone back to driving as much as I used to. I can't just sit in my house frightened so I guess I'll just live my life doing the things that I want to do.
Well, I have a few things to do this morning so I'm gonna go. But after that, I don't have to do anything until 5 so I'll be back before that.
Have a good day and remember that there's a stupid R in February that doesn't really belong there!
Ciao!
Once again, I've come here with nothing to say. I do that every so often and I never know where it'll lead.
Oh! Last night Fuckbuddy dude called for the first time in months. (You may remember him, I THOUGHT that I blew him off months ago.) But, he didn't mention that at all so I'm perplexed. Damn, that man is so pretty. We were chatting and all of a sudden I thought about Cheek Dude and I felt bad for speaking to fuckbuddy dude. Cheek hasn't done anything to make me feel like that...it was just one of those spontaneous feelings that I didn't expect.
What the heck does that mean? I don't understand me sometimes.
I had another one of those unexpected spontaneous feelings the other day when I was speaking with Rick. He mentioned something about his ex wife (the one before me) and it annoyed me. It shouldn't have, he meant nothing by it. I was just surprised that I felt jealous after all this time. What the heck does THAT mean?
Those are some telling feelings, I would think. I don't know what the heck they tell people, but they have to mean something, I just don't know what.
I had a migraine last night for the first time in years. I've had headaches, but this was a full blown migraine/sick headache. It eventually went away but I was freaking out a bit. I thought, "Oh, this is great. I'm gonna blow that aneurysm and be dead by morning." I didn't know how I would let you guys know that I was dead. I should find someone to give my password to so that if I do just drop dead, you'll know what happened to me.
When I had that cerebral bleed last year, I was sitting in my doctor's office waiting room. Quite the coincidence, I had an appointment and felt fine. One minute I was filling out paperwork and the next I was in the emergency room all tied down. I had NO idea what I was doing there. I ended up in the hospital for a while after that.
I was thinking about that the other day. Between the tumor and the aneurysm, I don't know what to expect out of my brain. But, I remember the nothingness that I experienced after the bleed and it made me realize that if I did drop dead, I wouldn't feel a thing. So, I'm not so afraid of it anymore.
I am scared when I drive, though. Especially if I'm going fast. I wonder what would happen if I stroked out on the road. I told my father that because at one point I was just too scared to drive. My dad said that it could happen to anyone, any time. Between that and the time that has past, I have gone back to driving as much as I used to. I can't just sit in my house frightened so I guess I'll just live my life doing the things that I want to do.
Well, I have a few things to do this morning so I'm gonna go. But after that, I don't have to do anything until 5 so I'll be back before that.
Have a good day and remember that there's a stupid R in February that doesn't really belong there!
Ciao!
posted by Meg Kelso | 7:10 AM
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