OK...

...I usually do any damn thing that I want to do and now I'm having a problem making a tape of myself. While I was trying, I was giggling like a teenaged girl and making stupid faces. I am such a ding dong. How silly is it to be nervous taping yourself alone? I can erase the tape if it looks too ridiculous. It's taking a rather long time to set up the camera, decide what I want to say and to actually say it all just so that I can get 2 minutes of me, being me. I never realized how difficult it is to tape yourself acting naturally. A lot of preparation goes into that, you know.

Try it yourself, turn a camcorder on and tape yourself for 2 minutes acting like yourself and telling someone why you should be on Big Brother. I've never seen it before. I didn't know it was all 20 somethings. Now I don't know why the guy asked me to try out. I can write ANYTHING, I can get up on stage and do stand-up, I can sit in a room full of people miming that I'm talking to myself but I can't tape my stupid self being myself without feeling stupid.

I tried last night after putting it off all day. I started a few times and I kept cracking up so I would go and rewind the tape and start over again. After a while, I decided to just keep starting over and over again on one tape and I stopped rewinding it. Now, I have an hour long tape of me acting so dumb that if anyone found that tape and watched it, they would wonder what on earth I was trying to do.

I'm supposed to tape a 2 minute tape saying why I should be on a show that I've never even seen before. Some of my reasons are so lame. One reason I came up with is that I had my own strawberry. Another reason, I collect Happy Meal toys.

See? I'm not doing this very well.

I did successfully tape my dog and me dancing. I like to listen to the 70's music channel and whenever I turn it on, my dog jumps up on me to dance. He's not very subtle, he gets his point across. So, I danced with my dog a lot last night. I love that cable TV 70's channel, you hear songs that you haven't heard in forever. Last night they played Indiana Wants Me...I haven't heard that in a long time. What a sad song that is. If you've never heard it, it's about a guy who killed some other guy because, "No one has the right to say what he said about you". And of course, "it's so cold and lonely here without you." Oh well.

They had some pretty odd songs back in the 70's. They had one about a couple who were "out on a date in my daddies car, they hadn't driven very far." And then, "the car stalled the engine was dead." and "I'll never forget the sound that night, the screeching tires, the busting glass, the painful scream...that I heard last." That song sounded so happy and peppy until you realized that it was about a fatal car wreck. Even Bruce Springsteen sang about car wrecks. (Maybe that's not so surprising, he could get a tad depressing.) He wrote a song called Wreck on the Highway. That was a fun little ditty..."there was glass and blood...it was everywhere."

You would think that country music people would sing more about car wrecks. They don't seem to. OH! Speaking of country music, I caught my son listening to Johnny Cash the other day. What's up with that? One movie and country music is cool? Oh, no my friend...it is not cool. It may be fun to listen to...but it's not cool. Well, maybe Roger Miller is cool...but none of the others are.

OK...I have things to do...I'll be back later.

Meg