WOW!!!

It's amazing how some people can make you feel like a worthless piece of nothing. But, I learned this weekend that another person can give you back all of what the nut job took away. I don't think I will be having any more pity parties. I was treated very well this weekend. It was nothing special, just well. That's all it took.

Somehow, it helped me put my marriage in perspective. It is over and I am glad. It wasn't healthy for me and I want to be healthy again. I can't do that while I am stressing over things that I can't do anything about and that don't really matter anyway.

It all has to do with respect. I am worthy of that. I had forgotten what that was like. I didn't even know my self respect was gone until someone treated me nicely. It hit me like a ton of bricks and I suddenly had a piece of mind come over me that I haven't had in years. I smiled and smiled until my cheeks hurt. No one told me any jokes, I was just happy.

I was happy that I figured out it wasn't me...I was happy that I realized that the marriage HAD to end...I was just plain happy for the first time in years. I didn't even realize how miserable I had been until someone made me happy.

I won't be letting anyone else have the power to manipulate my happiness again. And I will, from now on, understand how cruel a word can be and I will understand the power I have to hurt or heal.

Now that I know this, I am going to be a much better person...and I was never that bad in the first place.

Still smiling...

Meg