You guys aren't going to believe this...

...but Cheek Dude stopped by because he "sensed" something was wrong. I didn't tell him why, I just told him that I was stressed. He bought it. Then he sat with me for a while before he had to leave. As sweet as that was, I was so scuzzed out that I was embarrassed for him to see me like that. He's never seen me out of date mode before.

We're still going out tomorrow night so I guess I didn't scare him too badly.

I don't know what to do. I'm not going to stop seeing him yet. I guess I'll just stop acting all teenagery and thinking about him all the time. That idle mind thing is probably right. I think what I'll do is just slow it all down in my mind and keep my dumb self occupied with other things a bit more.

I think I should still see other guys, though.

OK, you guys win. I won't do this to myself anymore. I'll just enjoy the ride and see what happens.

Now, if only I can get him to never come by when I'm scuzzed again, I'll be fine.

:)